The Precipice

As is not uncommon for me, I have the lines of a song wending their way through my head. Today's song is, thankfully, NOT Rebecca Black's whatever it's called about weekends. Thanks to the guys on my team, I have been having flashbacks to middle school for the past several days, and they aren't the enjoyable kind.

One of the most startling things about the past few days has just been the realization that life is not what it used to be. I am doing things that I have never done before, and while I don't want to act like street evangelism is the easiest thing in the world... It's not like it used to be.

Derrik and I were at The Harvard Co-Op asking God for words for people, and we happened to be sitting in front of the Religion section. As I waited for our one small notebook, I glanced at some of the titles, my eye settling briefly on Counterfeit Gods by Timothy Keller. That book just so happens to be the one that I picked up at Borders two days before dts began while I was waiting for Hayden to show up at the Olive Garden for our last meeting before I was whirled away to Harrisburg. And even as I thought back to that day, as monumental and insane as my life seemed then, I am struck by how dramatically it seems to have changed. We joke about "paradigm shifts," as if they were an everyday occurrence, not realizing at times how dramatically such a shift has actually taken place over these past several months.

There is something about spending crazy amounts of time in the presence of God and in an amazing community that challenges and supports me in ways that I could never have expected. Somewhere along the line, you start realizing that some sacrifices are not too great to make, that some personal freedoms that we have come to expect are really just our selfishness getting in the way of an amazing relationship, and that our God is worth every second of life regardless of the circumstances.

Sorry, I don't really have time to wrap up my ramblings, but I also have to take care of college stuff! Insanity... :S